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What do you call the person who graduated last in their class in medical school?  A doctor.  A good family friend, who is a retired registered nurse and was married to a doctor in the genius category, told me this about 15 years ago when I, an über-perfectionist, was beating myself up about something I no longer recall.  Little did I know what good advice that would be when I became sick in the United States, officially home to the most deplorable healthcare system in the modern world.

The medical care in the city I live in must be the worst in this country by far.  I had better doctors when I lived in the 3rd world and am sick of it—pun intended.  At this point, I simply refer to it as bad medicine.  A medical doctor isn’t required to have great bedside manner, but they do have to adhere to certain standards in America, including the obligation to do no harm. This all stems from the Hippocratic Oath, or some version therein, which medical doctors take before practicing medicine.

The Hippocratic Oath is one of the oldest binding documents in history. Written in antiquity, its principles are held sacred by doctors to this day: treat the sick to the best of one’s ability, preserve patient privacy, teach the secrets of medicine to the next generation, and so on. “The Oath of Hippocrates,” holds the American Medical Association’s Code of Medical Ethics (1996 edition), “has remained in Western civilization as an expression of ideal conduct for the physician.”

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While I have seen many doctors in this city act in complete contradiction to this oath, my primary issue is with failure to diagnose.  It’s not specifically spelled out in the Hippocratic Oath or the Optometric Oath that one cannot fail to diagnose, but it is commonly accepted to be a violation. As a result of numerous doctors failing to diagnose my keratoconus (KC) in a timely manner, when it was rather obvious and the first disease that should have been ruled out based on my symptoms, I have permanent vision loss and distortion that could have been prevented via cross-linking surgery (CXL) in the early stage of the disease.  My poor vision has limited my life even further and is absolutely inexcusable.

I know these doctors failed to diagnose me because I had to obtain and send my medical records to my cross-linking surgeon in L.A. and I reviewed them one by one.  The blatant inattention to the obvious symptoms in my records by numerous doctors was staring right at me through my distorted vision.  If I could read the medical assistants’ notes, then so could they.

Let’s start at the beginning.  In 2006, I developed meibomitis, a disorder of the meibomian glands which affects the lipid layer in the tear film and causes a multitude of problems. After seeing a ridiculously incompetent ophthalmologist in this city, I found my current doctor, who tried to treat it for years without much luck.  I was always given an eye test before seeing the doctor and my visual acuity (VA) was noted in my chart.

I also saw yet another optometrist in 2007 to try and get a new prescription for 21st century glasses due to very mild myopia I’d had for 8 years, but the glasses gave me headaches and made me feel cross-eyed as usual, despite numerous attempts to alter the prescription.  There went a chunk of change.  My prescription was slightly stronger at that time, but I could still see well with my very old, ugly glasses, so I relied on those for long drives at night.

Due to the meibomitis, I was at the ophthalmologist’s office several times a year.  As mentioned, my VA was noted in my chart with each visit, so I have a lengthy history of my vision. In 2010, I was transferred to a new associate, as he was a dry eye specialist and my doctor was a corneal specialist. He didn’t have a 3-hour wait and it seemed like a better fit sub-specialty-wise so I didn’t mind, but he left town as quickly as he came, which is typical in this city.  Then, in 2011, I got shifted to the fresh-out-of-medical-school doctor who sub-specializes in glaucoma.  This is the doctor who I primarily blame for failure to diagnose.

My vision just went over a few days in October of 2011, at the age of 37.  My night vision had slowly been getting worse, but this was really bizarre.  I was tired of the sub par optometrists, so I made an appointment with the new ophthalmologist, as I presumed this was not normal and much more than worsening myopia.  I saw the doctor that December and he told me my vision was blurry due to dry eyes from the meibomitis, which I didn’t buy.  My eyes weren’t any drier—it made no sense.

Thanks to the records I have, I now know that at that very appointment, my VA was 20/70 in my right eye and the doctor should have been aware I didn’t normally wear glasses or contacts, as that is also noted within the visual acuity section in my chart.  My right eye’s VA had been getting progressively worse at each appointment as well, unbeknownst to me. Regardless, a huge asymmetry in visual acuity is not normal and needs immediate investigation, although I had no idea I even had visual asymmetry at the time. I left frustrated and decided to try to get a prescription for glasses, as I had no idea what else to do.  That was failure to diagnose #1.

I found an optometrist who seemed to have good online reviews.  I saw him in January of 2012 and had some standard tests done, including getting K-readings via a keratometer. This measures corneal curvature and is primarily used to detect astigmatism, but will pick up keratoconus beyond the mild stage.  Following that, I looked through all the lenses he flipped in front of me with uncertainty and he simply told me, “You have amblyopia and mild astigmatism in your right eye and your eyes don’t like correction.”

The last statement made sense due to the glasses fiasco, but how did I have amblyopia as an adult when I never had it as a child?  I had vision tests each year in elementary school and at my pediatrician’s office and was screened for amblyopia, a condition in which the brain stops receiving signals from one eye via the optic nerve.  My mother has it and is blind in one eye as a result and if he looked at my family history, perhaps that was an easy conclusion.  That just sounds like bad medicine.

After getting my diagnosis 6 months later, it turned out I did have an amblyopia-type issue, but not true amblyopia that develops in childhood that the doctor diagnosed me with. Due to my massive visual asymmetry, my brain shut off the signals from my right eye so that I could see better and I soon developed mild, intermittent strabismus in the affected eye as my extraocular muscles atrophied.  I was not aware that I had monocular vision, or that the VA in my right eye had been diminishing for at least a year per my medical records.  My vision appeared relatively the same to me due to my tricky brain only using my left eye, until the keratoconus developed in that eye as well, which is what caused the sudden and drastic change in my vision.

Nonetheless, the optometrist gave me a new prescription for glasses that I could actually wear without discomfort so I thought I finally lucked out, but I didn’t have 20/20 vision with them, still had the odd monocular vision, and there was no improvement in my near vision, which just went when everything else did.  It seemed good enough, until the glasses just stopped working within 3 months.  Now what? That was failure to diagnose #2 and misdiagnosis #1.

I saw the ophthalmologist for the 3rd time in May and demanded he take my deteriorating vision seriously.  He dilated my eyes, which no one had done, told me I had crystals (drusen) on my retinas, and referred me to a retinal specialist. He also stated, “This is not amblyopia”—referring to the traditional kind, which was in my records as something I reported that the optometrist diagnosed me with. Why would an ophthalmologist just assume another doctor’s diagnosis was correct without any records to refer to or confirming this for himself?  He had a look on his face that told me he knew he had screwed up.  That was failure to diagnose #3, or #2 from this particular doctor, unless I lost count.

So, it was off to the retinal specialist in June and more waiting while I was losing a line on the eye chart every 6 weeks.  The specialist said that the drusen were benign and that he couldn’t find any problem with my eyes, although he did note that my VA drastically improved when I read the eye chart through pinholes.  The pinholes block more light, which leads to less visual distortion and increased acuity in certain conditions.  In my right eye, my record states that my VA was 20/100, but pinholed to 20/30 and my left eye had a VA of 20/30 that pinholed to 20/25.  Well, that sounds rather odd, yet he simply told me to return to the optometrist for a stronger prescription.  Did he even review my records, which indicated that I failed a pair of new glasses a couple months prior?  That was failure to diagnose #4.

I waited again to see the optometrist and had an appointment in July of 2012—9 months since I thought this all started.  I had lost even more vision by the time I saw him and ghosting, or multiple images, was about all that I saw at that point.  I had K-readings taken again and not one lens he flipped in front of my eyes helped me to see the eye chart. He abruptly stopped, looked at the little paper from the keratometer, and told me I had keratoconus.

He gave me little explanation and made no mention of it being a progressive disease or that CXL surgery would halt its progression.  He simply said that I needed medically-necessary contact lenses known as hybrids to correct my vision, which were not covered by my discount plan vision insurance, but that he sold, of course.  They are extremely expensive and would need to be replaced often due to my rare, late-onset, rapidly-advancing keratoconus.  That was a direct violation of the Optometric Oath #1:

I will advise my patients fully and honestly of all which may serve to restore, maintain or enhance their vision and general health.

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He did tell me I needed to see an ophthalmologist to have a corneal topography done for an official diagnosis and to assist him in fitting me with the contacts.  I told him the name of my clinic and he said to make sure my former doctor—the corneal specialist—did the test.  As I was no longer his patient, it was another 5 weeks for an appointment.

One question still lingers.  At my 1st visit, why did the keratometer give K-readings on my right eye that were low enough to be interpreted as mild astigmatism when my VA was so poor from my cornea turning into a cone that my brain had literally shut off vision from that eye?  I believe the assistant, who performed the test, made a mistake, unless the machine did. In any event, the doctor should have retested my eyes due to the keratoconus symptoms to be sure.  That was human or mechanical error #1.

That was when, despite my terrible vision, I did as much research as possible on what I had, learned it was progressive, discovered clinical trials for CXL to halt the progression, and the rest is history.  The cross-linking greatly improved my visual acuity, which is atypical, and I have binocular vision again as a result, even if it’s keratoconic vision.  My visual acuity pre-CXL, which I don’t believe accurately reflects keratoconic vision due to the distortion, was at 20/100 and 20/60 (right to left).  My VA less than 2 years earlier was near 20/25 bilaterally as the myopia I developed in my mid 20s was very mild.  This was a pure failure to diagnose by multiple doctors, bad medicine, an example of the abysmal American healthcare system, and whatever else can be thrown into the mix.

I know this to be true because a caring and competent optometrist in my hometown of Seattle, who happens to be good friends with my step-father, sent this e-mail regarding my situation shortly before my diagnosis.  Note that he never saw me or my eyes during this time:

There is only one word to describe this…OY…or OY VEY.. There are too many things going on. Amblyopia is a condition that one is born with. This would have been detected early unless the vision was 20/25 or so and wasn’t really a factor. She might have developed a corneal condition called keratoconus, which is a steepening of the cornea with distortion causing blur. This should have been detected earlier with corneal mmts. She may have/had an optic neuritis which is an inflammation of the optic nerve causing a loss of visual field. This is sometimes a precursor to MS. If this were the case, her MD should recognize this and any visual field loss or sudden change. This is all “rule out” testing. Who knows since she was bounced from one Dr. to the next. I would look for a corneal specialist or a Dr. specializing in dry eye.  This Dr. could also evaluate for any corneal irregularity such as keratoconus or irregular astigmatism which may/may not be a problem. I would also suggest a neuro-ophthalmologist to evaluate for any visual field loss or acquired “amblyopia.” They would also evaluate for any other neuro problems in the visual pathway through the brain to the visual center of the brain. In any event, she needs to find someone she trusts and stay with that person as none of these problems will quickly resolve… Thus..OY. 

That is an example of a good doctor—one who is well-trained in diagnostics and concerned enough to leave no stone unturned to achieve a diagnosis.  It’s a huge dose of good medicine.

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  1. dyspatient says:

    While it sounds like many of the docs you saw deserve a serious spanking for their ineptitude, you definitely deserve a medal for persevering. I know how hard it is to keep pushing, changing docs, pushing more….it’s a real struggle. I hate that it went on so long and that your vision deteriorated so much, that it cost you so much trust not just in doctors but in people (it always does…the effects of these bad encounters are vast. They are so bad and it is so scary to know you need help and to have that need be dismissed over and over that the effects cannot help but bleed into every aspect of life). I am proud of you for pushing.

    As an aside, your post reminds me that I need to call the wretched eye doc I saw several months ago when my right eye suddenly pooped out and decided to start putting star bursts around everything, glaring on any dark/light borders in my vision. He was 100% useless and not worth going back to.

  2. Thanks for the kind words; I really appreciate it and do know you deal with the same thing. It’s just so frustrating! These types of doctors really hate me (hee hee) as I’m so pushy with them, but I don’t care. The optometrist’s records were so botched that he revised them on the phone with me (no addendum)! My misdiagnosis just vanished, too. I think he knew he’d look like a real idiot if my world-renowned corneal surgeon saw them.

    Please do get that eye looked at at that hospital you mentioned. I never thought I would get some horrid eye disease in a million yrs and time was not on my side. I know my posts are getting so long, but I do hope someone can see their story–or some aspect of it–in one of them…

    • dyspatient says:

      I know, I gotta go get it checked out by a real doc. It’s just another visit right now…another convincing someone that there’s something wrong. I’m not up for it. I know that’s irresponsible but there it is. My grandmother has some eye problems, and connective tissue disease (she was dx’d with “mixed connective tissue disease”). It’s not nothing and I will get it checked out. Just not this week.

      • I hear you. I need my MVP looked into due to some symptoms now, but don’t want to see anyone here! Ugh. Anyway, lots of ocular issues with connective tissue disorders in general. If you get a bad doc, just send them to the Bad Medicine Resort! I can’t believe there’s really a place called that (and a lake)… Lol. I didn’t make it up this time! 🙂

  3. susan sievert says:

    The doctor that delivered my baby boy could have done so much more but she didn’t. She could have reached inside of me and helped him out instead she chose to cut me open against my will i did not want to have a C section’
    I think that she is an intern and doesn’t know how to deliver a baby. She was not strong for me at all like she said she was going to be. She made it so uncomfortable that my husband didn’t even want to be in the room. My over all stay there was not good at all the nurses came in and kept taking blood from his little foot causing it to turn purple this was against my will. America has lost its way and we are now starting to resemble Nazi Germany!
    “Julie one day you will wish someone lifted you out of this hell-earth”

    • Hi Susan,

      Thanks so much for sharing your story. I’m so sorry about your experience–that’s just deplorable. It must have been awful as I’m sure that’s a stressful enough situation (never had children). Plus, your poor baby! That doctor took away all your control, which I don’t like one bit. No wonder women are going the midwife route more and more. Send that doctor to the Bad Medicine Resort!

      America has lost its way–you hit the nail on the head. Our healthcare system didn’t used to be like this and the world held the US in high regard. It’s “the system” and the insurance companies that are the root of the failure I believe. Please tell me we are not starting to resemble Nazi Germany. I will need to get a visa and one-way flight ASAP. The new Europe actually has healthcare figured out in my opinion. I talk to a lot of Brits online and no complaints from them one bit! We just get sub par care and go bankrupt over here. Sigh…

      Take care and thanks for dropping by,
      A 🙂

  4. susan sievert says:

    It didnt start out like that at all until it came time for me to actually push is when it turned bad and against my will. It was stressful for me because i didnt expect that to happen i thought this one was going to be different i was wrong. I am done haveing children 2 is enough for me. I can not go through what i went through again. I had a mid wife but she stopped seeing me because she considered me a high risk patient because of my previous C section that is what i wanted to do in the first place was a mid wife but that went down the drain fast. You are smart for not haveing children. I dont regret haveing them i love them both to death it is just what i went through to bring them into the world.

    • Oh, I just hate to hear this! I do believe a midwife is working “out of their scope” with high-risk patients, but they sure have their place in this world. I never wanted children and have been very sick for 12 yrs with Ehlers-Danlos, a genetic connective tissue disorder that was misdiagnosed until a few months ago. I never would have been able to have children due to what it’s done to my body and pelvic floor (plus the genetic factor), so good thing I was never interested!

      I am interested in this issue, however, as my step-father is a good, retired OB/GYN. I was born in the early ’70s, so lots of new ideas for birthing around that time. My mother did the “natural childbirth method” 3 times. Yikes! I don’t like that hospital setting personally (not that I’ve experienced it), but it is the safest because if something goes wrong, you really want a good doctor there (if you have one!). My step-father saved many lives in his day due to unforeseen complications.

      I think the hospitals and OB/GYNs need to find a way to meld modern medicine and the natural birthing process. Women’s health is always on the back burner. I would start with why are women laying down? It goes against gravity and isn’t natural. My great-grandmother was the town’s midwife and herbalist as there were no doctors nearby and I think there must be a way to combine the old and the new. I’ve heard so many “bad” stories like yours, which made me even more relieved I would never be going through that. Sorry that you and others had such terrible experiences. I think the more we all talk (and complain!) about our healthcare in general, the faster we’ll see changes. I get the supervisors on the phone and throw a fit!

      Take care and enjoy those two kids you went to hell and back for!

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